New Year!

My baby girl last year on new years day I remember your happy new years message. My heart will ache so much on this day for more than one reason. First of all because your not here with me and I miss you so much, It will feel as if I’m leaving you behind in 2006. Strange I know that I should feel that way but it’s as if I am struggling to hold onto anything including the year that had you in it. I Love You if there is any way give me a sign you will still be with me in the New year. Love Now and Forever Mommy

Merry Christmas my Baby Girl!

Merry Christmas my baby girl thanks for sharing each day you did with me.
Today I will spend thinking of you signing Happy Birthday in person to Jesus. You will always dwell inside my heart, thoughts and prayers. Making it through this Christmas will be tough without you,. I did not add presents under the tree this year in fear of breaking down. But instead I am thinking of our Christmas’s past and all the excitement and joy you brought to my world. Mommy loves you baby girl and always your close to me in spirit.

Misty was my girlfriend I love and miss her

Misty is the love of my life she was not only my girlfriend but a friend of mine. I remember the first day I met her it was at school and JOTC she walked in with a big smile on her face. Even though my day was messed up she made it better, I pulled her out of formation to help her but I really just wanted to talk with her. She made me so happy I miss that smile of her’s. I loved that smile she had so much energy we started dating on 08/29/05. I remember all the good times we had and the plans we made but most of all I remember love we had between us. Nothing can stop that I will always love her and will never forget her or the times we had. I love her and miss her.
Love Jack

Thanksgiving

Angel

No tears left for today

Today I made it without tears, no tears left in the physical sense today just the ones that are in my heart at the moment. Surprising enough it's been exactly 3 months 12 day's since my baby's death everyone said it will get better well it's not. It just seems to be getting worse with the holiday's fast approaching I just want to crawl in a hole and bury my head.

Angel was my life

The despair is never ending you feel as if your spireling downward not knowing how to get back to the light. My daughter was 15 years old and died on 08/08/2006.