Bitter Sweet yet heartwarming knowledge of your presence

My dear sweet Angel, my hair feels your soft gentle touch when the day has been too long.  Just the way you always did when gently watching over my shoulder while my hands stroked the keyboard.  My heart feels your presence when life makes me weary.  The squirrels in the yard somehow know and sense your presence and play in delight at your sight.  The birds no doubt are singing because of your gentle sprits conducting the music.  These things are known because your precious unending love lives past yesterday and follows the path to eternity where one day jointly we will dwell.  My dear sweet Angel thank you for staying close at my side lifting, encouraging and assisting in the arranging of my lingering days.  Feel my undying love and tender kiss as the wind takes it to press upon your cheek.  In a place my spiritual may not physically be able to see but my heart understands and makes up for in faith.

Hug straight from my soul to yours my darling Angel : )

 

My dear and most precious Angel had to take this time to wish you a Happy Easter.  Heaven no doubt is spectacular with beauty beyond our comprehension.  This year as all those past will be thinking of you and remembering all those joyful Easter Days!  Yearning from the heart for the sign you will send to remind me your nearby.  Thank you for the joy of the lady bugs, flowers, birds, rabbits, squirrels and the constant reminders from the heart.  Love extends all realms with that am leaving you my special Easter message.  Gratitude fills my heart for my spiritual knowledge.   Both allowing and aiding my understanding.   That the Lord and you my darling Angel walk through Heaven together this special day.  Thank you both for the generous and unending gifts of love.

Love you not only today but tomorrow and for eternity!

Life’s amazing and loving grace through the eyes of an Angel

Darling Angel, When your near your presence is sensed, the love reaching from the highest plane in heaven is never guarded from me. Tender touches from the depth of two souls intermingle yours and mine. Unconditional love which defies description yet truly known. How is it my countenance is so blessed with the sweetness only you could bring. Dare I ever contemplate or should it just be accepted and left for an explanation in another universe time and place. Thank you for loving, accepting and blessing me with such tender loving care. Never will your memory fade your smile leave my deepest memory or your sweet precious touch disappear from this place nor the next from which we shall share life eternal.

Heartache and memory

My dear sweet precious Angel, stuffing these little valentine bags to spread love and joy with those whom might join you before my day comes. Brings my thoughts to life’s many winding trails and it gives me pause. My Heartache and memories bring tears althought sometimes am blessed with smiles as I think of the unconditional love you gave. When your presence indescribably envelopes me every now and again, in the

wind hear your sweet whispers or see your shining smile in the stars. Courage to face another day fills me and I feel you continue to urge me to have the heart to bless others. Just the way you blessed me I pray my mind continues to stay open to your endless and never ending love. Thank you my sweet girl and happy Valentine’s Day! My Love undoubtedly travels across the many miles or realms whichever it may be that keeps us physically apart. Hugs!!!!

Only smile real smiles

Only smile real smiles for the miles of this world are many. Only smile real smiles the soul recognizes those. Only smile real smiles Angels in heaven rejoice for them. Only smile real smiles where love last forever. Only smile real smiles,they shorten the miles between earth and heaven. I love you my darling Angel happy valentines day, pray you can feel my hearts smile for you in heaven.

Live, love, laugh, play and remember your treasures

Treasures don’t come in big or little packages but in spiritual packages they come. I know because of an Angel whom taught me so. She taught love is a treasure one to always remember one to never forget especially the unconditional love. To laugh is a treasure she loved my laugh and I lived for her laugh. Play she taught much of, such a wonderful treasure one her memory brings much thought of. Life in her presence brought such pleasure, now her spiritual presence brings comfort for the long weary days. Hugs my darling Angel forever feel my hugs and forever know my love for you is grander than the universe. You can’t measure real treasures there are no measuring tools that can recover the dimensions involved in unconditional love.

Note to an Angel

My Darling Angel,

Still miss you today as if it all happened yesterday. Somehow the spirit reveals and reminds me of your sweet and precious smile. The hug and touch is missing but inside somehow you still remain. Your always close in my heart, thoughts and prayers. Its feels you want me to remember love overcomes the heartache I feel inside. I just still wish you were here and I could see and touch your beautiful smile.

Surviving is the beginning after the end!

Surviving is the beginning after the end!
Mother’s day meant you believed in me you loved me and I was important to someone very special, you! Surviving is the beginning after the end for me that is what each day has been without you here. Never will your loving and wonderful spirit be forgotten Sweet girl of mine. This Mother’s day is hard to even begin to face but your words of past Mothers day cards and notes will be on display within my heart. Your loved & Missed and through the tears your memory will survive the years. Love Mommy!

Six long months today my Sweet Precious Angel

Today Baby Girl it’s been six months since you left me in the physical sense. It’s hard to believe a half a year has come and gone how I’ve gotten through the moments is beyond my knowledge of strength. But my darling Angel your in my thoughts daily every where I turn ,everything I see and every song on the radio brings you to my mind. I love you so much to think continuing on without you sometimes is unbearable.
I know your never going to leave me in spirit and will continue to guide me on. Although my life is endless it seems without you beside me in this world. Today I’ll visit that cold ground your buried under to take you a rose, sing you a song and to let you know your never forgotten. Somehow deep inside I know you understand when the tears fall your mommy misses you so.

New Year!

My baby girl last year on new years day I remember your happy new years message. My heart will ache so much on this day for more than one reason. First of all because your not here with me and I miss you so much, It will feel as if I’m leaving you behind in 2006. Strange I know that I should feel that way but it’s as if I am struggling to hold onto anything including the year that had you in it. I Love You if there is any way give me a sign you will still be with me in the New year. Love Now and Forever Mommy

Merry Christmas my Baby Girl!

Merry Christmas my baby girl thanks for sharing each day you did with me.
Today I will spend thinking of you signing Happy Birthday in person to Jesus. You will always dwell inside my heart, thoughts and prayers. Making it through this Christmas will be tough without you,. I did not add presents under the tree this year in fear of breaking down. But instead I am thinking of our Christmas’s past and all the excitement and joy you brought to my world. Mommy loves you baby girl and always your close to me in spirit.

Misty was my girlfriend I love and miss her

Misty is the love of my life she was not only my girlfriend but a friend of mine. I remember the first day I met her it was at school and JOTC she walked in with a big smile on her face. Even though my day was messed up she made it better, I pulled her out of formation to help her but I really just wanted to talk with her. She made me so happy I miss that smile of her’s. I loved that smile she had so much energy we started dating on 08/29/05. I remember all the good times we had and the plans we made but most of all I remember love we had between us. Nothing can stop that I will always love her and will never forget her or the times we had. I love her and miss her.
Love Jack

Thanksgiving

Angel

No tears left for today

Today I made it without tears, no tears left in the physical sense today just the ones that are in my heart at the moment. Surprising enough it's been exactly 3 months 12 day's since my baby's death everyone said it will get better well it's not. It just seems to be getting worse with the holiday's fast approaching I just want to crawl in a hole and bury my head.

Angel was my life

The despair is never ending you feel as if your spireling downward not knowing how to get back to the light. My daughter was 15 years old and died on 08/08/2006.